You've heard them say it ' time flies when you're having fun', or 'just wait until you get married and have kids, then time will really go fast'. They weren't lying. As I ponder my 25+ years (I'm not in denial), I wonder - where DID the time go? There have been times in my life when I honestly thought I would never see the light or never grow 'up' - time just seemed to stand still. But then all of sudden, someone hit fast-forward! Where is the pause button?
Life as a college student is fond memory - yet it feels like a lifetime ago! And I'm not that old! Only four years ago did I graduate. Then there is high school.. what? I have special memories, with friends and family during that time, but already most of it is a fog. I couldn't tell you my class schedule, or what shampoo I used at that time (who could?) - but I can tell you who my friends were and how I enjoyed spending my time.
The past 7 months have been such a wonderful time in my life. I have watched a tiny person, grow, learn and explore the world around him so quickly! I want to remember EVERYTHING..and again only 7 months into it, I am forgetting. Some days are a blur - how do I remember? I do keep a baby book, and a journal every once and awhile. I think that will help me remember these precious days as I get older.. and forget.
When I look at Brogan, I can't imagine what my life would be like without him and I am amazed with his perfection that was created by myself, my hubby and of course, My God! Every day is something new for Brogan. He never ceases to amaze me.
Only 7 months ago, I did not know this boy. I was a wife, a daughter, a sister, a (great) granddaughter a (great) niece and I friend. Now I can add, Mother. Something I have always dreamed about and now - I am! 7 months/31 weeks as a Mother and I am forever changed!
My perspective on life has changed. It's about Brogan now. How can I make his life easier? What can I do for him today, that will help him tomorrow? Every little decision Chris and I make right now will impact Brogan's little life. Whoa - no pressure! :) He has opened my eyes to so many things on only 7 months! What will the next 7 years show me? And about that pause button? Who has it????
Though I feel scattered and not really knowing what the purpose of writing this entry is I am learning to enjoy my today and soak up every minute before it's just a memory.
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